Still (16/04/2020)

I don't wanna lie, I still want you
Hearing your name still makes my heart skip a beat even though I know it's nowhere near being you
I'm still under your spell
Still wrapped around your finger
Still willing to twist and put myself in back breaking positions that make you comfortable
Still losing my morals to make you happy
I'm still there
Still listening, still feeling, still loving
I haven't lost it

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